Auby
Thursday, July 29, 2010
My lecturer mentioned; Class dismissed!Like it's going to make any difference?
I'm staying till late anyway..
I am bored to death!
School, you are the cause of my depression and agony!
When will you end?
I wanna get my dip and fly like a bird!
I wanna get LVs, Chanel, Prada and all the exquisite goods there is in this world!
I am deprived of my sleep,
Depressed with love, for not being able to be there for me during weekdays,
And I am facing problems with my JAVA pages.
FUCK.
It hurts like FUCK when you have alot of people around you and yet they can't help you.
It's friday today, so let's just not curse any further, shall we?
I miss lying beside hubs.
I miss being with him.
I miss his kissed and hugs.
And yes, he is a pure saint. Mom loves the boy alot!
And I mean alot.
Always messaging me now and then asking about our rship.
She is worried and concerned, especially about me!
ROFL.
Speaking of which, I intend to get mom a guess bracelet
Whadya think?
Lolx!
Macam nigga pulak aku nie, lolx!
Okay go~
Get mom that. Once I work, get her an LV bag
But she's diff from me ;)
She doesn't like branded goods, she just like...
I also dunno what she likes, lol
She's just simple, period.
So mom, I'll do something special for you this year okay?
xx♥
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Good morning world! I have so much to say today!Before that, I apologize if I haven't been updating my blog,
And some may ask, why I have two forums just to share my life with you.
Reason being tumblr is more fancy apt for me to reblog whatever the hell I want and blogspot is more personal.
And why Auby Laraesa Adams?
Well for starters, I have split personality, something you all should know,
And no, I am not dumb for sharing this with you, just a self intro about myself,
Auby is dominant, on stage, that is, and confident! That for sure! Complex, fickle and hard to please, lolx!
She is someone who is able to be so cocky and so elegant, she is someone who has fire in her eyes!
Very accurate and very firm.
The real me?
My name is Nurul Jannah, well NJ is someone not so glamorous, simple-girl-next-door.
When I am on stage, I am Auby, when in real life I am NJ ;D
Hope I answered your questions.
I am brought up to be as such. I am not pretending. I am taught to be modest and humble.
I thank my dad for that, really!
He taught me to be so humble at times I just don't care about my profession.
I am not ashamed of donating, and I don't give a damn to who I befriend with.
And yes, I really don't.
So do not be shocked if I talk to everyone;
I mean cleaners, 3 for one dollar uncle, even grandparents/grandmas.
I can even be close to your mom.
Lolx!
That's what my own mother mentioned. I am too friendly at times.
But it's okay, I am what I am, I do not live to please anyone so yeah!
Moving on,
SCHOOL IS DRIVING ME TO INSANITY!
Dear Allah, please give me strength!
I am in the verge of giving up already!
Amin!
Fasting month is nearing thank God!
I can't wait for deng deng!! omg!!!
Arrivederci Bella~
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Whoah! Since sunday I'm home!Do you know how stressful that is?
I mean there is virtual world and all, but I'm used to going out, modeling and hanging out with my boys all of a sudden I have to stay home?
Bummer!
It's Like Mental Torture! I Swear!
I never felt so restless before!
I am a stubborn kid, proven and mom actually lied about being amputated!
She wanted me to stay home, can you believe it?
I am just too bored really, tsk!
And I am not going to cancel anymore shoots!
I was suppose to judge a photography competition yesterday, also I was offered to act on the upcoming Suria's drama!
And I called mom, She screamed her lungs and say 'YOU BETTER REST HOME! GIVE ME THEIR NUMBER, I'LL TALK TO THEM PERSONALLY'
Macam singa mak aku, I replied, and giggled while nodding my head saying okay!
And all of a sudden, I felt like eating Mars Balls!
If you have no idea what I'm talking about, you can check out my pictures in the folder MY BOYS II
I tell you the mars balls got me munching and singing! Superb!
Woots~
Next week, meeting Spore's top notch models Diana K and Anna Chan~
Should we watch sorcerer's apprentice or salt?
Still considering, and prolly we'll be having dinner at Simpang, yay!
I still owe Jojo his test shoot!
Tomorrow is my Quiz 2 for DMSD, wish me luck yeah?
And I am thinking of adding a chat box, weeeee~
Till then take care readers,
xoxo~
Sunday, July 18, 2010
I am dead serious this time, I am in pain!No more acting, this is for real! Bummer!
I injured my right leg and it hurts like hell!
Omg!
I am not keen to visit the clinic but I have to, dear God please save me!
I really need to go school, I've missed out in alot of things, already ;'(
Hopefully by Wednesday I will recover, Insyallah!
Eversince the accident, everything has become topsy turvy, and maybe I just need some rest!
I can't expect everyone to be there for me or with me all the time, so I have to be independent!
Insyallah I will pull through this time ;)
Amin...
And I know it's so hard to let Sephora go but I have to!
Hubs, I miss you, and I need you..
FOREVER~
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Hello everyone!I just came back from dinner and as usual, I spend most of my time on virtual world, what else is new?
Went to popeye with Adex and a bunch of mixed boys and girls were staring at me and adex, thank God I wasn't wearing jeans, prolly I'd be wondering whether I zipped my pants or not lol
I was busy browsing through the pictures in facebook when someone knocked at adex's door.
To my surprise, it was Ezzaye!
She came with Royal cakes, chocolate!
I woke up immediately!
How blessed can I be?
Every morning when I wake up, I receive text messages from my boys, my friends; closest, who will ask about my well being, whether I had my breakfast yet, not forgetting my parents who spoils me with electronic gadgets!
And every night before I sleep, I have my pillars of faith asking whether I had my dinner or supplement yet, what time to wake me up in the morning to go to school, or to fix my schedule for me as I am so forgetful!
And I have a personal trainer, a personal alarm clock, a personal banker, and etc.
How lucky can a girl be?
While other girls have one man by her side, I have three to protect me, to guide me, and to be by my side always!
And I cry myself to sleep at times thinking what I have done to receive such treatment!
I love my career and I also love my future! I am really slacking with school, and I need to buck up, honest! No more supp papers, I aint gonna let my past be a hindrance from me getting my cert!
And most importantly, I wanna make my parents proud!
Please, dear Allah, answer my prayers!
I really want to graduate from TP with a diploma!
Okay gtg now, need to buck up!
xoxooxoxo~
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Such a perfect date! Such a perfect day!I had a shoot at Woodlands Waterfront with Elly and Ella!
Weather; Raining cats and dogs, and I just recovered from flu! Oh well!
It was enthralling indeed as I had two different shoots, one is the casual wear and the other is jerseys!
So me and Elly wore Man U jerseys and I gotta admit I love the shots, pretty amazing!
There were two photographers today, Ella's cousin and Izzat!
We didn't waste much time and everything went smoothly Alhamdulillah!
It all ended at about 6 30pm and I rushed home to meet hubs since we're celebrating our first month anniversary!
We went Swensens at Tampines Mall and had dinner there!
Laughed out loud and enjoyed our meal when we knew deep down inside we couldn't meet as often as before ;'(
I have to be strong mentally, physically and emotionally!
I have to distract myself everyday so that I don't miss him much!
I hate the fact that he's leaving but I have to understand that he has to serve the nation!
It feels so wierd when you are so used to spending time with the person and when he or she is not there you feel so lost!
Hubs put me to sleep every night and I wake up to see his face on my door whenever he comes to pay me a visit, and when he is not there, I feel so empty!
We went EL-SHEIKH after dinner for a sheesha session and as usual I was dizzy!
Lol I know I am so kental hehe ;D
We headed home after that, and he kissed my forehead, I love you hubs xoxo~
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY~
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
I had a blast today!I washed my bike ( Sephora ) with hubs and adex!
I actually bought my first TURTLE WAX and my sephora is looking good!
Swear!
I am so happy that I am really focused on her because I have not been pampering her all this while and she gets really upset whenever I abandon her or ride with Buruma or Adex!
My sephora is alive, it gets jealous easily!
I intend to let her go actually, but when I think to myself again,
I spend so much on her, ( ONLY GOD KNOWS )
Fell with her, stood up with her, and she accompanied me everywhere I go so why should I let her go easily?
She has always been there for me and she is a sentimental value.
Only because she is a gift from my dad!
So I am gonna work extra hard to maintain Sephora and INSYALLAH I will pull through this ;D
Allah, help me Amin!
And I swear I am struggling with my EWA project!
I am so stressed with the codings and I just feel like jumping off from the plane!
Omg!
Mummy and daddy bought me the derma skin care! WEEEE!
It feels so good to be pampered since I am the only daughter in my foster family!
I just love them so much! Mom gave me an Ipod shuffle too, but I want an Ipod touch ;'(
Boohoo~
Soon, will ask for either that or a BB?
Too much to ask but I am spoilt, still, I am not taking advantage of it not to worry!
I am a simple girl, I lead a simple life and it remains that way!
xoxooxxxooooxooxo~
Monday, July 5, 2010
So I just woke up from dreamland and apparently I am in school! None of my members completed our projects yet, I felt so stupid for a moment.
Didn't manage to verify the mistakes in the codings!
I had a conversation with my team mate, Ang Kang..
Auby; Ang Kang, you know how to do or not?
Ang Kang: You think I know meh?
Auby turned to Buruma..
Buruma: *Laughing*
Auby: Oh Well, let's pack up, we still have tomorrow!
So tonight I intend to call Kelvin ( swear he's a pro ) and ask him for help!
I guess this is the only chance for me to get good grades since I have been slacking alot in school!
Well, since when have I been a fan of school?
I am a bummer, really and I just don't care much about what others wanna say because I am not a hypocrite!
I share what I feel, even when I know my quotes are bold!
I touch on controversial issues which might affect anyone, but it's my FACEBOOK, and I write what I please, that applies for both TWITTER and TUMBLR!
If you don't like it, jollywell don't read it okay?
Like I mentioned before, I live not to please anyone, and trust me, when I conpliment someone, it comes from the bottom of my heart! I mean what I say. Honest ;D
I really appreciate my friends in facebook because they are so nice to me!
Every single day, when I am in the VIRTUAL WORLD, I always look forward to seeing my facebook friends!
You guys really rock my socks! Call me exaggerating or whatever but I meant well!
Whenever I post something on my wall, you appreciate the quotes I share and you relate to me well! For that I have to thank you! Least you guys aren't fake and that is what I appreciate most!
Mom asks me why I am not out all the time and I answered her I love being in bed talking to my friends over msn or fb!
I do meet my boys or other friends too, don't get me wrong ;D
And finally, I have forgotten everything about the past, put it behind, moved on with my one and only, Hubs!
Will be gg out on a date with him this weekend and hopefully everything goes well for him after the 12th this month!
Amin.
I know I don't deserve you hubs, you are such a great guy! Such a saint, and you come from a religious family but I am trying my best to prove to you I can change ;)
I know you have never really dated anyone, or even held a girl's hand before, or even sat next to a girl and watch stars at night, or been close to someone the way you are with me but rest assured, I really you, hubs!
In every possible way, I do! You are such a rare gem and I promise you I will change for the betterment of myself, I wont disappoint you, Buruma, Adex, my mom, and my family!
Above all, I won't disappoint my Dad!
Insyallah! Love you all, xoxoxo~
Sunday, July 4, 2010
So others have been asking me why is it so easy for me to move on, So here is my answer......
I met a nice man three years back by the name of Sam,
Fell in love with him, been with him on and off for three years and this year, finally, I told myself it's the end of our rship..
Reason being I have had enough of his nonsense!
Enough of giving me false hope, enough of hurting me emotionally and mentally, causing me distractions which made me depressed completely!
I told myself that this is it, this time round I am not going to dwell about the past anymore, I told myself that I will move on, the moment he cheated on me!
WOMEN WOULD RATHER BE DUMPED THAN BEING CHEATED!
You lied, you went around asking for my friends' contacts, contacted your ex gf who was pathetically seeking for empathy and sympathy and put the blame on me and bitched behind my back?
Get a life, you jerk!
And stop bitching about me, because you know you are in the wrong!
So go find another victim, and satisfy yourself by making her your puppet because FINALLY..
I am done with your crap!
So stop coming back because I am moving on, GOD This feels soooo good!
And FYI, I am done with you and I am dead serious!
Read my lips F**K OFF!
FUN FUN FUN!
I had a blast with hubs yesterday! We were both true Sporeans! Hubs and I went out in white!
Woot!
We went for the NDP premiere and it was drizzling and we headed to Far East Plaza to dig into mars balls!
If you haven't noticed I am a chocoholic! And I swear I love MARS BALLS!
I have been sharing with everyone I know!
After which we headed to PUNCAK to have our dinner and as usual I gave Hubs half of my food!
We went straight to Changi Airport and met my cousins there as we're all saying goodbye to our aunt as she's leaving for a trip to CROATIA!
Wish I had the luxury of travelling, I have been dying to visit ROME!
Or VENICE for that matter, honeymoon there perhaps?
We headed home after that, had a conversation with hubs;
Hubs: B, are you sleepy?
Me: No B, I am not..
Hubs: Then why are you talking about puppet show?
Me: I donno... but we really have a puppet show, and there are elephants there..
Hubs: Okay b, I am going to hang up now, sleep okay?
Me: okay...
That's how our conversation ended..
The very next day, me and Caramel met up, talked about life, went to eat Mars Balls again and I ordered 8 mars balls with Vanilla ice cream!
Phewwwww! Cannot carry, extremely delicious!
Then hubs fetched me at far east and accompanied him for dinner and went home!
Fabulous day, fabulous weekend, back to school later at nine,
Woot!
xoxo~
Friday, July 2, 2010
The Weather was apt for me to rest my head on my soft pillows and just snore till the next morning!But what happened today was really worthwhile!
I met up with cousins at 4 after going to the doctor, I am down with gastric flu, and after which I headed to Bugis Village to meet my cousin's wife, Kak Radhiah!
To my surprise, her younger sister was my junior!
I feel so old, PFFT! But then again, age is just a number you know!
So we headed to Tong Seng to have our early dinner and met up with Adex and Fee ;)
Dyan was late due to her interview with IR so we all headed straight to AL-SHEIKH after that!
Al Sheikh- warm, cosy, relaxed but it wasn't air-conditioned and I just lie down flat due to exhaustion!
Fee, myself and Dyan ordered Iced Choc, while Adex ordered Coke (usual) and Kak Rhadiah ordered Peach Tea ;))
Choice of Sheesha Flavor; Double Apple
For once in my life, I felt as though I was high on drugs!
I don't smoke due to asthma and I never really tried sheesha before so I know I might sound KENTAL but who cares?
I just loved the atmosphere and I love the ambiance!
Once Aunt arrived, we wrapped it up and went to Iluma to catch Eclipse!
And suddenly Dyan, who's working @ the cinema told me a story..
Dyan: Hi mam, how may I help you?
Customer: Yes, can I have a charcoal please?
Dyan: Sorry mam we don't see charcoals here.
Customer: (Hand was pointing towards nachos)
Dyan: Talked in a very slow pace; Oh, you meant NACHOS?
Customer: (Feeling so embarrassed because bf laughed at her) Yes.
Dyan: (Giggling) Yes, that would be $7 mam
Customer: Thank you (Mood changes abruptly)
Dyan: All SMILES;D
My baby cousin is hilarious! She mentioned the woman who ordered the nachos was kind of cocky so she hit it hard on her, apologies on her behalf*
We headed home and by that time it was really late so I had hubs waiting for me at the bus stop!
The moment I alight, Hubs carried me because I was too dizzy! He's such a sweetheart! Send me to my door, and mummy asked, 'Kak, bodyguard akak hantar?'
I replied 'Yes myy, he did'
xoxoxoxoxo~
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Another hectic day Blearghhhh!I had to sit and hear my lecturer complain, and I was on the verge of tears!
I have to admit, I know nuts about codings and softwares!
I felt like a complete bimbo in class today!
And I was happily sleeping through lecture!
I was so depressed about term tests and all haix!
To begin with, I don't even know why I choose this course lolx!
I'm halfway through so might as well finish it right?
After this then I can talk about my future planning yea?
Went out with ma for threading at Serangoon after school today and boy, the place was packed!
Had some ladoo and samosa!
I am proud to be an indian ;)
After which, met adex and hubs and headed to LJS @ tamp, camwhore a lilltle and headed home!
Ma and I giggled about the incident that took place in the bus, God that was hilarious!
And went on facebook as usual, and It keeps my mind off certain things, like how depressed I am in my real life, or about bgr issues, or about my past, or how much I hate jerks or women who look down on others when they're not perfect themselves, alot more..
And my facebook friends are so nice to me, so sincere in fact and everything in my virtual world is loved by me, what more in real life?
I have my boys, my family, true friends and cousins who will always be there with me and for me through thick and thin and I don't need anything or anyone else for that matter ;D
I just need my pillars of strength by my side, thats' enough for me.
I'm turning in soon, I have a shoot later on whoppeee~
xoxooxo~