I just give up on everything, really!

I told mom, if this fails, I am finding a Caucasian!

I have had enough of going through depression and I definitely have had enough of endless sleepless nights!

It is driving me insane honest, only my close ones know!

Yesterday was the first time I laughed out loud!

Many thanks to Adex and Buruma ;)

I have been so dull lately and I refrain myself from meeting my mom but it is eating me up inside!

Only God knows!

Worse, I can’t pray or even fast, once I am clean I will do just that, raise my hands and ask Allah for help!

I can’t break down just yet, I can’t feel miserable now, and I can’t lose focus!

My exams start on the 7th and I am losing a lot of focus because I think too much!

Deep down inside, I cry but I can never show my sadness!

I try not too but whenever I think about him, me and us, I breakdown!

Till today, my friends have been giving me moral support, encouraging words to make me feel better!

Thank you all!

Srsly! I don’t know what I will be without my friends!

Be it virtual world or not, to those who have been with me through thick and thin,
From the bottom of my heart, I thank you!

Sincerely, I thank you! You guys are the reason why I am strong enough to overcome all the obstacles that comes my way!

May ALLAH bless your kind souls!

And I have reconciled with my aunt! Thank God!

I don’t want to bear any grudges anymore!

I really hope everything will be fine sooner or later Insyallah!

I just need some time to recover, I need some time to be stable,

I need strength to go on, Dear Allah help me please!

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