Okay I am just so tensed now!

I am just so tired emotionally, physically and mentally!

I honestly feel as though the whole world is tumbling down on me..

It hurts to the core!

Everyone around me fears I might hurt myself, and my mom is very much concerned about my well being!

Well something about me that you should know, If I am upset, I tend to be alone, and that means deactivating Fb, and I'll normally off my phone!

It's just the way I am, really!

Judge me all you want, I've heard so much about me already!

Buat lah fitnah, aku dah tak kuasa lagi,

I just need a peace of mind!

That's all nothing more, okay?

I am going shopping with my BFF today, and prolly get something for myself!

I need it really! Have been always at home or in school, and I hate crowds!

Claustrophobic~

I wonder how am I suppose to face the crowd during fasting month later, sighs.

Anyhow, I am planning to take up my Class 3 license!

But I have no idea when I can do so!

School's taking most of my time and I have not been modeling for quite sometime now, sheesh!

And I still think of quiting, I need to do something more than this, am still considering!

And my personal life...

Gosh, where do I start?

And when does it end?

I can just pray to Allah to make me strong..

I have enough of everything..

And this saturday I am heading to Malacca!

I need a break, from everything!

Really.. big time!

Done of feeling so miserable after reading a text message, done of being nice, done of complaining, done of getting hurt done of swallowing the pain, done of crying, done of everything!

My eyes are sooo red now, and I've been crying inside, I am crippled!

I need a getaway!

Pretty soon, and there I have it!

Can't wait to meet my girls, really!

xoxo~