So I am writing this while I am just so restless in the room. At times when I think about it, I just cry to myself thinking why life has to be this hard.
Be it relationships, family, work and school. I may seem different in person that I am in virtual world.
My life is not that great afterall.
I still have alot to achieve and I have alot to learn.
I have been suffering alot lately, and only God knows what I am going through.
DEPRESSION, I LOATHE THAT WORD!
I am soft, yes but please don't push your luck and don't press my trigger button!
I SWEAR I HAVE BEEN VERY PATIENT!
To think that I could have a peace of mind here with dad and mom here in Malaysia, I still have to think about home. Oh goodness!
I just feel so upset thinking about everything!
What more do I have to do to make things better?
Tell me!
What do you want from me?
I am trying my very best to be mentally focused but I am emotionally weak!
Is it a test from God?
I have had enough, my life is ruined as it is,
With all the drama and pressure!
I am hoping for the best but who am I to kid?
I know things wont be better and I know things wont be okay.
I feel so lost again and again.
I feel like running but I don’t know where to go.
Daddy lied to me about going KL,
He brought me to Genting Highlands instead!
Because I have been bugging him to bring me to the theme park!
And he suprised me well!
Thanks a billion daddy! You’re the best!
And as usual, being the only pampered girl,
I shopped for make up, food and CHOCOLATES~
Woots!
It’s just so fun!
Never ending fun!
And suddenly mummy showed me a text that shattered my heart into pieces!
I just feel so hurt reading her text!
And suddenly everything about my past came back!
It was like a flashback,
From the man who broke my heart into pieces,
To the one person whom knows just how I am since I was a kid.
I hurts like hell!
I swear!
I am really trying to pull myself back together so please help me by leaving me alone.
Go do what you want just leave me the hell alone, please!
I am crying myself to sleep every night,
And I just need my boys!
They are so supportive of everything that I do!
I need them and they know that!
I got them hot keychains well I don’t know what else to get for them!
Got adex this hot sexy womanly-figured keychain in red,
Got hubs a bike keychain in silver
And buruma the BFF, a gun keychain in blue*
Hope you boys like it!
So I just want to go back to school since I need to mug for exams!
Wish me luck yeah?
Gotta head to bed now,
Goobye Malaysia,
Hello back Singapore ;’(
Xoxo