And so I watched LAGENDA BUDAK SETAN,

No worries, there are subtitles though!

I guess my personal blog is rather simple and plain compared to my tumblr~

I want it to be easier for you to read cause if it's too fancy it might be an irritant to the eyes!

So I had a heart-to-heart talk with MH and I cried, cried and cried whenever I am not with him!

Why I can't move on;

He changed me, brought me to the right path, saved me from myself, made me a queen in his life and treasured me!

Yes, It's his first rship, so i gotta see it in a different angle!

I know it's hard for him cause he's never been this serious and I know he's never the sort who goes around telling girls ILY or anything for that matter!

And yes, It's hard, I never mentioned it was easy!

I tried moving on, not that I don't but nothing can compare to him!

I hold on to our black book, memories of me and him,

Staying up till four in the morning just to star gaze with baby cousin,

Cried for hours and hours when we both are in depression,

Doing stupid and foolish things that hurt us just to forget each other,

Went for every single family occasion,

Mom's wedding, mom's solemnization, fasting month, birthdays, anything and everything!

I have been so attached to him, and we don't need no sex for that!

It's beyond description!

I have been through so much Sh*t in my life,

Over and over again we hurt each other,

But every night I pray to God to find me a soulmate,

And yet he's the first one I come running to when I am sad or happy,

And yes he might be monotonous, religious, boring and quiet!

But that's what makes him special in my eyes!

I've never really been able to convince myself I can't live without him,

But this time round, I have to admit, he's everything to me,

Be it in a rship or friendship,

He's the one I come running to for help,

He's the one I come running to for comfort,

He's the one I come running to for attention~

And eventhough if we don't get to be together in the mere future,

I CAN NEVER AND WILL NEVER FORGET MUHAMMAD HAZWAN~